Restoration
- Gracya Rudiman
- Jul 6, 2017
- 2 min read
Day 1
Hey readers, its been a while actually a very long time since I write a blog. Things has happen a lot lately in the past year and I, well you can say I lost my primary purpose life which is to love Jesus, my number love in my heart. July 6 2017, is the day all my answers were revealed. I was a selfish person, I lost that identity, I let my heart love mankind more than I love God, and forgotten the main purpose of life. Today I open a few things, past conversations and so on and it made me realize that because of my selfish self, letting that ego win God in my soul. I lost everything my relationship, my friendship ( my family ) and my true self identity. Thats why God let this happen, before I completely disappear. A day I can call today as my restoration. The day that I confess to Jesus, is the day my old self die. Thrown into the deepest sea, sealed by the blood of Jesus. I have to comeback, comeback loving Jesus fully, surrendering all every single part of my life to Him. I don't want to comeback to that old Grace, a Grace who has fallen into sin. I am so grateful that God loves me so much so He gave me a chance, a chance to comeback. A chance to Heal. I don't know what will happen to everything I loose, but I know for sure now there is one relationship I have to focus on first which is My Relationship with God. My love for God. Will everything I loose comeback ? Will I have another chance ? I don't know, I screwed up pretty bad, but that doesn't matter now. What matters now is to recover myself, to comeback to God and regain that true innocent love for God, and completely change. I realize it's no use I beg for forgiveness, say sorry, cry as long the river, beg for chances if myself hasn't fully change. Because when you find the Kingdom of God first, the rest of life just puts on together. Some may say years, months to recover. But like His promise in Mark 9 :23 and also Mark 11:24. There is nothing impossible, and if you believe it will happen, it will come true. When Jesus healed the blind man it was all an instant, and I believe He can do that too to my heart. So readers, each day we will count, the great He has done expecially to my life. I hope whoever you are who might be struggling the same thing with me, we can all unite and restore our heart.
- Grace
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