Suicide

Well I am back readers and I know its been a long time since I wrote something, I have been real busy lately, handle a few hurdles in addition to that my laptop sort of broke down. I am back, and I am going to write about something that is quite personal, but I am open to this part of myself, this past of myself. Suicide, something most people find it ridiculous,stupid,irrational and so much stereotype labeled, and come together to define or react to the word suicide. Some may say “ are u stupid, that is nonsense “ or “ have you forgotten God “ or “ get over with it “. The scary thing our tongue is like a sword,where those words can actually lead someones death, by saying those words we society are not saving, preventing people from suicide but instead drown them to a deeper whole, they have carried inside there burdens mind, creating a bigger negative image of themselves that made them think of suicide. I myself had thought, attempt suicide not once not twice but 5. Some might wonder why someone like me would think something so stupid like that, am I not religious enough to know that is a forbidden law. Suicide is nothing like that, but it goes step by step before the word suicide appears and what drag me down the most is a sense of guilt and imagery of myself that was broken. I felt such a mistake,such a failure, never good enough, never ‘beautiful’ enough, hurt the people I love till the point, if there was no me, would it make a difference, would the world be a better place, what am I if all I create is a mess,trouble,pain to the people around me. Some may wonder did I forgot God, I knew about the forbidden law, but it was well took over by my own thoughts,my own self alter ego, till a moment God seem forgotten but I was not forgotten. I was saved by my mentors and a few close friends, it was a battle between two sides of myself and seeing the aftermath,seeing there is more essence in my life than I though exist, made me relive my day as who I am present today. Suicide is something considered serious, but has increased over the years, this post is a memoir an increase of suicide awareness. When we are faced with people around us who are drowning in depression and carrying on in suicide remember never negative, bring back the essence of positivity back, all we gotta do is listen,care and mostly love teach what is love :)